One Regret

Visit with me August 2000...picture a 25 yrs. old pregnant with her 6th child (4 living, 1 miscarriage) stressed out..if she would ever regret having her hubby get a vasectomy, the answer you'd get would be "NO". That all changed November 2001 when I kissed my sweet toddler Hannah Grace good bye "this side of heaven."

Now visit with me, today...July 31, 2009. Time and maturity have awaken and regret has set-in. It's extreme sadness in my heart that I just can't seem to move through. I'll never forget our "well meaning" pastor coming over short after Hannah died...he said "I know you, you'll have another one (meaning child) in no time at all." Yes ,true Mr. Pastor "no time at all" is exactly what I'm living with.

Please don't write and tell me that having another child would replace my Hannah...I know this..but having another child sure would help fill the space that has been emptied. Family is sooo much more important than ANYTHING in this world!

Off to read with my favorite 10 yrs!!